what do you do when stuff is going on in your life?
personally, I tend to withdraw and get quiet. I’m an internal processor, so in times like this I need space.
as is common in relationships, Mr. D is the opposite of me – a verbal processor. after 8 years of marriage we understand this about each other
I sort of hate being in this state of uncertainty. I hate it most when there are other people involved.
I don’t want to have to try to explain things to people that I don’t understand myself.
who can understand God’s timing?
who can even know if one is waiting on God or being strung along by the enemy?
the other night I asked God to tell me if we were crazy, or if we were really supposed to be doing this.
Romans 8:28 popped immediately into my head.
I have never been good at remembering Bible references, but I was sure it was going to be a complete fluke. I started at the beginning of chapter 8 to delay the disappointment I was sure I would find in Romans 8:28 – something I was sure would have nothing to do with our situation whatsoever.
I was blessed to find the verses leading up to 28 to actually be quite encouraging and in line with our hearts, so I figured well at least that was something.
then I got to verse 28.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
it gave me the sliver of hope that I needed in that moment. we want to believe that no matter what comes of our summer, God is working, and it will not be wasted.
it would feel like a great relief to give up on the tour, but I know we would regret it. we second guess ourselves every day, but then little glimpses of what is in our hearts being fulfilled peep through here and there and we keep moving forward.
you remember those 3 doors I talked about in a post earlier this year? apparently we were picturing them wrong in our heads – the vision wasn’t that we were having to choose between 3 doors, we were walking through 1 door which lead to another and another…
living a life of faith is so very, very uncomfortable. but it is our desire, it is what we are aiming for. we want to see God move and we are stepping out onto the water…